Archive for Surrender

After the Storm

The solar eclipse on July 1 swept through like a tsunami, with wild energy. Likely, you felt the wave emotionally, for the eclipse was ruled by Cancer, a feminine water sign. Water rules emotions, so the current either lifted you higher into spiritual union or caused inner conflict to surface, like the debris on a beach after a storm.

The effects of the eclipse linger throughout the year. Your discoveries will travel with you—the seashells and seaweed return on the tide. It’s your choice whether you find the gift beneath the darkness or throw the seashells back into the sea. New Moon/Solar Eclipses offer a demonstration of our inner conflict—how life works or doesn’t work within us, and in the outer world.

The water sign of Cancer indicates both the shadow and the love of the mother, a highly personal form of love.  Imagine the beach at night. It’s difficult to discern the objects, and the crashing of the waves is loud. The next day, the sun is very bright. The seascape looks different, and the crabs, shells and debris have assumed another shape. Change comes from accepting the alteration of the landscape –the beach may never look the same, but the ocean remains the same.

Alchemy teaches “feeling” as a method of merging with the Divine. The mind and action cannot save us when the world is topsy-turvy. Instinctive and intuitive feelings connect us with a higher source, so we find alignment, as a compass to direct us toward the love and light. Or at least the right answer, which can only be found within the heart.

To fully travel the new world-scape, it’s important to discard old patterns. Look at them as baggage or burdens, which are no longer needed.  Surrender the old emotions around useless or repetitive patterns by throwing them “out to sea.”  The course to freedom begins by realizing no one can truly affect our thoughts or feelings or reality (in the big picture.)

The separation from collective consciousness and movement toward the expression of inner love will continue throughout the summer. Remember, you are a creator. The message is: your vibration alters your perception of reality. The seascape changes when you focus on the heart and love–the storm ceases, and the sun shines through the clouds.

An Intuitive Glance at 2011

Dreaming up 2011

When the world was based on indigenous feminine cultures, which were based on the cyclic rhythms of the Earth, the New Year arrived on February 2, a date that lies between the winter solstice and spring equinox. Known as “ Imbolc” in pagan cultures,  the life force began to rise from its yin cycle deep in the frozen ground  to the surface and enlivened the earth. Imboldt played an important part in co-creation; it was the moment of focusing on dreams and desires so that the procession of life bestowed physical form to one’s matrix of spiritual imagery. Before embarking on the manifestation of dreams for an annual experience, it is helpful to glance at the astrological weather and numerological sequences.

The year is 2011. Eleven is a master number, and when the sum of its digits are two, often denoting the balance or reconciliation of duality in the physical world.  The sum of year is four, the representation of an expression in the material world. But let’s return to 11. As a double Sagittarius, I know a lot about eleven because Sagittarius is ruled by Jupiter, the planet of benevolence, which often sends help at the eleventh hour.

Many times the angel of the eleventh hour has graced my life with its presence, so sharing this experience seems important now. The miracle does come but usually only after hard work, repetition, and devotion. The angel comes most often when we are on our knees, when meditation, prayer and every technique that we’ve ever practiced has failed. It is – in that moment – of relinquishment of one’s personal powers and beliefs, of surrender to a greater power – that the Holy Angel with the Flame of the Soul charges in with an impossibly, unexpected answer.

Why is this important? Duality, as the problem itself and the desired solution, is lifted to a divine answer that sometimes completely obscures the original problem or desired solution. When our consciousness is lifted to the Source of the One or All, we receive immense light or illumination. In this light, the answer to life’s difficulties becomes quite different.

For example, when I began my work as a healer and herbalist, my son fell ill with a mysterious fever. Neither doctor nor prescription helped, and his illness was termed “fever of a non-specific cause”, probably due to hereditary factors. As the days ensued, the fever continued, and I watched its course and its effect on his body.

I channeled energy through my hands into his body. Calling on my practical knowledge, I used herbs, baths, and special teas. At one point, I knew that I could do no more, nor could science. Always I will remember the moment of surrender – of saying, “Universe, you take this. I can do no more.”  The Universe answered and he was healed.

Another time when I was newly divorced, I had no money for groceries, and it was the beginning of the month. I didn’t know how to feed my children. In my mind, I had followed every intuition, meditated daily and tried whole-heartedly. I simply didn’t have resources left. I remember then asking the Universe for help, but expecting nothing. I knew that I had to “turn it over.” I promised to try my best to improve my life if the Universe could just give a sign. And I’ll never forget the golden wave of love that encompassed me in that moment. Life didn’t change suddenly, but I had the strength to continue. I didn’t doubt anymore. I knew that light would carry me. And it did – many positive changes came in the following months, but none as profound as the appearance of light in that moment.

Surrender is not an answer to all of the world problems, but it is the right response after trying our best.  My understanding is that grace and mercy are bestowed when our inner work allows access to the next highest level of consciousness. When a decision is made to continue our quest, the Universe sends grace and mercy that lift us from our karmic position.  It is then that we see the “light.”

Collective Consciousness

The number eleven also refers to Aquarius, the eleventh house and the current Age, a time of recognition of our ability to create as individuals and through collective consciousness In the eleventh hour, on the cusp before it turns to midnight, everything falls apart or comes together as numeral eleven’s expression of duality.  (When or “if” many join together in uplifted consciousness, solutions to impossible problems are found.)The current weather trends and instability of natural patterns also indicate a turning point or certainly the beginning of the end of this time.

The planets continue to aspect the Aries point. Aries point is the beginning, the start of the year, and the end of the old.  Aries is a fire sign, and Franz Bardon defines Aries at one degree as:  the use of the spiritual element (fire) as applied through memory and intuitive ability.  The Sabian Symbols (Dane Rudhyar) states, in part: “To be individually conscious means to emerge out of the sea of generic and collective consciousness — which to the emerged mind appears to be unconsciousness.”

The alchemical view of “emerging out of the sea of generic and collective unconsciousness” refers to the individuation process of separating from mass consciousness. Wherever we are have not awakened, we subconsciously merge with the energy of the sea of collective consciousness. It is through holding images in our mind that we take action. Yet, we are unaware of this power until we awaken from the dream of flowing along with the minds of others. Ironically we separate from collective consciousness when the mind awakens through the flow of spiritual connection.  The movement toward Oneness separates us from the lower negative vibrations of humanity by aligning us with the higher vibrations of a more cosmic consciousness. The word “sea” also points toward emotions, the pivotal point between mind and physicality.

We are all feeling mass consciousness on a global scale. We’ve noticed how one or two negative thoughts can quickly lead to anger or depression. .  In the past, it was said, “Time is a good thing because it gives us time to decide if we really want to manifest a certain thought or idea.”  Now it seems that it takes less time to manifest a thought, and it is easier for others to intuit our thoughts. Collective consciousness, at this juncture, holds a sea of negativity, and it’s necessary to vibrate above it or to be pulled down by its frequency.

The acceleration brings one advantage – unhappiness is quickly altered by higher consciousness! , it’s more important than ever to stay in a positive state of thought and emotion. (A very simple but effective tool is to simply send pink light to every particle in your field and surrounding area. In other words, raise the level of your spiritual and physical energy.)

Every hour brings news of world events, which connect and vibrate with our emotions, thoughts and feelings constantly. We vibrate together during world events — our frequency is affected by media and the world at large. The challenge is to understand the creative power of our awakening consciousness, not simply solving world problems – although the two states certainly are not mutually exclusive. It’s more practical to think that they are related.

But let’s take a deeper look. If every particle of individual life is a particle with a spiritual and material resonance, then light underlies its form. It’s known as “First Matter” in alchemy; it is the presence of the light and love that underlies the fiber of all Creation.  Quantum Physics says that particles respond to frequency, belief and an observer state.  Evidently, the particles, which comprise our lives, respond to our inner state. Perhaps, the inner fiber of matter responds or corresponds to our state.

The weather, which has been wildly wet, could be said to correspond with energy of water or emotion in alchemy. Waves of enlightenment or higher consciousness are initially experienced as instability, mood swings or deep feelings as we swing between the duality of emotions until they are mastered through a gestalt realization. (Emotion is the testing ground of mastery. Mastering emotion is one of the more difficult tests because emotion becomes unstable when we encounter a “reality” that appears to oppose our direction or goal. Our emotions lower, becoming erratic in the movement between the present and desired future.  It helps sometimes to remember that the highest emotion is LOVE. The matter of the Earth appears to currently reflect our state, but I believe as we move toward unity that earth changes may be resolved.)

Duality is necessary to live in a body that is housed by spirit; the challenge is to see and live in a higher, more enjoyable and balanced reality. Mastery of duality is learning to hold a realization, a higher image of perfection in relationships, body or spirit until it becomes the home of our moment to moment consciousness. When consciousness begins to target “home”, then the higher frequencies of love and surrender begin to create a new reality. Surrender means letting go of the limiting beliefs that separate us from the One/the All.  It is then that love and light are bestowed from the One, and the One alters the view of duality into unity. It is the mastery that makes the miracles of the eleventh hour visible.